Spoken Word: Fear
Since returning from the World Race, I’ve struggled with anxiety and fear. I guess this is my way of kicking it in the shins.
Remind me to trust You, Lord
because it seems I keep forgetting
letting
the old fears sink in
again
listening to a voice that isn’t Yours.
It’s a voice that sounds a lot like mine.
But that’s just part of the lie, isn’t it?
That whisper of “quit.”
That whisper of “sit”
right where you are
but not in a peaceful way
that whisper of “stay”
but not to be at rest.
That whisper that says I should be stressed.
Because failure is assured
and so is disgrace.
It keeps me in my place.
Paralyzed.
Afraid I’ll make the wrong move
so I don’t move at all.
If I don’t move, I can’t fall.
But then that’s all
my life becomes.
Bowing down to fear like it’s my god.
I follow its every command
until I can barely stand
under its weight.
Listening to that voice that tells me it’s my fate
to live in anxiety
ruled by this god with a little “g.”
Must be nice to have an idol
you can just throw out the window
and go
on with your life.
Mine is more like some nasty
invisible fiend I can’t shake.
And all it wants to do is take
my peace
my promise
my identity.
But see,
it can only take
if I give.
I forget that it’s my choice
who to serve while I live.
Who and what am I feeding?
What kind of field am I seeding?
Anxiety better watch its back
because I’ve got the cure.
Trust is the antidote to all my fear.
So meet me here,
Lord,
meet me here.
Remind me of Your voice.
Raise its volume
so that I have no other choice
but to listen to my Shepherd,
hanging on to Your every word.
Remind me to trust You Lord.
Because sometimes I forget
Who You are,
and who I am.
And all the things You’ve done,
and all the battles You’ve already won,
and all the promises You’ve made,
and all the ways You’ve saved the day.
Okay.
Remind me trust You, Lord.
And remind me that I belong to You.
Not to some god with a little “g,”
but to the One who’s ransomed me.
2 Comments
Cassie
Thanks so much for sharing Jen, great word!
Derek Simke
The Lord is using you Jen Jones. He’s proclaiming His FREEDOM once again to His beloved. The devil told Jesus, “All of the kingdoms of the world have been given to me.” Well it’s high time we exercise the authority given to us through Jesus and take back what is rightfully ours! We can put fear in it’s place and do the impossible!
You’re awesome 🙂
Grace and Peace
Derek